• CHER'S •
Unopened Letter to the World
At this moment, there are 6,876,993,152 people in the world. Give or take a few. And sometimes all you need is one.
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♥ Cher is a name of French origin meaning dearest or beloved; shortform for Cheryl. Cher puts the 3rd syllable in FOKKIEWSEAH, the 1st syllable in CHERNINSHAN, is happily heartlocked and truly blessed. Can be found at weblinks on right or cherskye@gmail.com



Tuesday, July 07, 20092:49 PM★<3


when a simple picture speaks a thousand words ((:

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Monday, July 06, 20098:48 PM★D:

when things get tough, you should care 'bout (the) future!

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Saturday, July 04, 20096:55 PM★ROCK

ARTS CAMP 2009 WAS AWESOME! :D

Been so busy even after camp, catching up on sleep, going out, uploading photos, going out again, and sleeping again. The House name this year's REDIO, which is hella cool, and my OG's name is ROCK! Filled with a bunch of crazy freshies who are damn sweet and enthusiastic that all have the Redio and Rocker blood in them ;)

Too much to update about! Was afraid to come back this yr cos' of a lot of little issues, but really glad I met a bunch of great new people and kept close to the old bunch too! <3


some of ROCK's freshie girls!


some of ROCK's freshie guys!


ROCKERS WILL ROCK YOU \m/


CHERNINSHAN! its been a year girls! i love you all!


Supper at Fong Seng in the wee hours of the morning!


RHIVAS/ROTO 08 ((: LOVE YOU GUYS! Can you believe its been a year and we're still close? HAHA so fast!


KILLER ROCKER MASCOT HEH HEH!


ROCK after Club night! whoo! hey goodlookins'!


ROCK councillors; can't imagine camp without you guys!


The gifts the freshies made for us. including this other container thing with our names and ROCKS eg. Cheryl Rocks! HAHA their gift ownsi the one we tried doing for them which we gave on the last day. Can't believe they all went to buy so much materials and folded flowers and all for us. Made us all so touched until we cried. GOSH! love you all! super love all you rocker sweethearts!

Camp has really been a great experience. So much energy, so much sacrifice, so much fun and so many new friendships forged! Really warms my heart seeing how bonded the freshies are, and how much they care for us too. I recall all the pats on the back and hugs I got from the girls! love you all! (: All must come back for Oweek kays?


ROCK ON! ;)

And yes, yesterday night was our unofficial first ROCK outing! it was such a large turnout and family of both ROCK09, RHIVAS08 and RHISKY08. WOOT! Crazy crazy night! Zirca and Rebel after.


Toast to Derrick's performance!


Rhivas / Rhisky 08 woot woot!


you guys sure know how to PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR!

I really can't express how great camp was in one entry. Especially since when there's hundreds of photos all over facebook all depicting different days of fun, games and bonding!

Going back for camp was also to support the one person who means the most to me, ben tan (:


Taken before Club night on Day 4 Arts Camp! Ben went back this time as an OGL, and though we always envisioned doing this together as an OG, with him being OGL and me AOGL (explosive combi lor pls, noisysi) but whatever it is, I support him through it all and I knew he'd do well way way before he was selected!

Dear, I'm very very proud of you. Not only because you're a great OGL, that you have a big heart enough to care and lead everyone, but also cos' you're a great boyfriend. My small tokens of buying ben lozenges, cooling water and whatnot to pass to him every night were small actions compared to the love and time he found out of his hectic schedule to shower me with. Baby, I see it all kays? (: To me you'll always be this perfect person; and I'm just glad that we have each other through all fun, love, highs and lows of life!



Arts Camp gave me my bestest friends, gave me the bestest boyfriend (: Its been a year knowing everyone, 6 months of being bestfriends with ben and another 6 being together. And it was truly been the best year thus far!

My heart is exploding positively with love for my Rockers, Rhivasians and Roto-ians. I guess the beautiful part about Arts Camp is that no matter what OG you're from, you will still feel greatly attached to the people around you, the newfound friends made, and feel love and attachment to the people you spent those intense 5 days of crazy fun with. Super super love the Rockers; seriously a bunch of highspirited, sweethearted and extremely sexy bunch of people. (:



And dear, I'm glad I have you! Cos' we do just about everything together - get high, get low, shout until our voices sound the same (wtf) and its just heartwarming to know that, we've all got each other through life's journey, even if the journey consists of blindfolds, heavy rain at sentosa and countless cheers.

WOOHOO. ROCK ON! \m/

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Friday, June 26, 20091:29 AM★Arts Camp 08 moving to 09!





To think its been exactly a year that I've joined Arts Camp, met my darling Rhivas, made the bestest girlfriends Linin & Shan, got to know more people like Felix and Sheldon better, became best friends first with Ben and later happily attached to him (:

I'll be off to camp from Friday to Wednesday! Will be returning this time as AOGL for Rock, an OG I'm starting to really love! So see you at Arts Camp 09; We're gonna rock the house down ;)

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Thursday, June 25, 20093:03 AM★Hours and Days

Life is a mere composition of hours and days, and time continually rolls by and at the end, I just hope I end up standing where I want to be at the journey's end. Which leads me to think rather randomly, not so much goal-like but more funnily random, where I'd like to be..

At 30 yrs old: happy married to a non-jerk, non-mcp guy who'll wash dishes with me, tell me he loves me every night, pray with me for our kids, hold my hand in church and know me inside out because I'd still be as transparent at 30. I'd definitely be Catholic, for a lot of real reasons and by this time hope to have a great relationship with God. Have a stable career and yet rising career (jessie-seah style without all the burning hunger but instead the happy-with-what-i-work-for thing), probably either heading my own magazine, being a killer writer or PR practitioner, or maybe cherninshan would have become the next Chanel, in hope that my days in USP paid off. A beautiful son who'll probably like to play games and have a cheeky smile like his daddy, and a daughter with jet black straight hair like mine. They'll both be hell talkative in time, but shy at first like me. Linin, Shan and I would still meet up to bitch over lunchtime at some pricey restaurant (we all made it big now). Queena, Cheryl, Jo and I would still meet up once in a while despite living very different lives. Cheryl and I will probably walk around LV a lot and be pseudo tai-tais. En and I's kids will have playdates, and still be bestfriends forever. Benzi would hit it off with my husband, and they'd play WoW together even at 30. The mom will still be a prick but a loving grandma, i'd be totally in love with my in-laws contrary to what sterotype has it to be. Would have saved a lot of money. Would probably contemplate together with my hubby about whether to get a dog (golden retriever or -insert short haired dog breed here-) and I'd still be equally as cheery, bimbotic, warm, touchy, soft and strong.

At 45 yrs old: I'd still love Jane Austen and I'd still be reading books to expand my knowledge. Would have ideally moved into a terrace house by now, and complain to my husband that the grass is growing long and that the new dog keeps poo-ing everywhere (I probably gave in to buying the dog cos my teenage kids promised via contract signing that they'd be responsible about it and we even picked out the best kinda dog, like my old waffles that was the epitome of guai). By now I have to nag at my husband quite a bit to get him to do the dishes with me, but when the kids aren't home we'd lie cosily in our masterbedroom in each other's arms, channel surfing. I would be a great but fierce boss at work. I'd still be meaty and watching my weight a bit, and by now, I love vegetables. I probably cry a bit at how angsty my teenage kids are, but only my husband would know and we'd be great but very firm parents. My boy might like anime/sports/girls and my girl would tease me about me growing older. By now they go to church with their own friends!

At 60 yrs old: I'd absolutely adore my daughter and son in law. I'd be wrinkly, but my husband will still look at me as if I'm still in my twenties. We'd be active senior citizens, running our own house, going out together to run errands, and do everything together now that life has started to slow down. We'd sell our house in a few yrs cos we'd be too old to walk up the stairs. I read my novels with reading glasses now. I'd have won maybe some award during my life, earned enough to make me happy, be a proud parent no matter what, and be glad I spent more than 30 years with a man who stuck by me through it all.

Yayness! OKAY BUT NOW I'M 20 TURNING 21, I'M UP AT 3:35AM (ben's gonna scold if i sleep any later already) and i'm chatting rubbish online with linin. Shopped with Linin the other day and bought a nice top! ;) And then met ben for dinner and helped him with stuff ((:



Phone cameras suck. And I'm so happy wit'chu. I ran a lot of errands today; bought toiletries, sewed stuff, bought arts camp thingies and collected my specs! Which as I said previously, are very functionable.



Shall head to bed now! I realise that, even if everything I stipulated/suggested/joked about above at different points of my life doesn't come true, I'd still find so many ways to be happy and grateful for what God gives me.

P/S Lucas has this new habit of snoring. Is it normal?

And happy birthday to dad today (: <3 love you so!

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Tuesday, June 23, 200912:48 AM★Celebrations!

Birthday Celebrations are in! ((: I love birthdays, and I'm still deciding how to celebrate my 21st this year. Should I have a huge party and invite everyone to a chalet? Or should I have it quiet, not so cher-style but have small dinners with all the different groups of people that matter? Or, should I get away for my birthday and plan a trip overseas? :D

In any case, I never thought I'd say this, but I'm actually a bit tired to update my blog! There's so much stuff happening lately, and in 4 days its Arts Camp! So exciting! Hope it'll be as fun as the first time round (:

Happy Happy Birthday Yuxing dear (:

My big big bowl. LOL.

And felix insisted we take a picture together! with his big bowl too!

Linin & I! this was when I just cut my hair!

And then, there was Cheryl's 21st birthday at Timbre! ((: it was an awesome night out. We got her a box full of.. sexaaye underwear, jewellery thats so her, and personalised cards that Queena PS-ed!

TADAH :D HAHAHA

And cheryl's reaction to one of the pieces of underwear that we tried to convince her was a bohemian hairband. HAHAHA

And hello, I love you girls (:

And yesterday was R house gathering, and also Minhui's birthday! ((: Yay, shared a yummy yummy cake and rhivas sang a song for her! ;D

Presenting.. ROCK! ;D the new og I'm assigned to as aogl! Love them rockstars, and it was cool practicing cheers and getting to know (relatively) new people and yet stil having tox pris and linin!

But yup, even though I love the Rockstars, I still miss the Rhivasians aka. ben felix shan jo norvin and so on and so forth! miss having an equally loud and noisy counterpart ben, felix's ""moves"", shan's presence, jo's singsong personality and i hate to admit it, norvin's stupid jokes. Yuxing's sweetness, and everyone else!

Ben dear accompanied me to make my 4th pair of specs today. 4th pair in the sense that the first 3, lucas chewed. and so we settled on a reddish/dark pink pair that will be functionable! later we walked around a mini pasar malam in toa payoh, bought ramly burgers and bubble tea, watched Hot Chick on dvd, ate yummy black sauce chicken by dad bought back and had a mini tickle frenzy which i lost.

And dear this was the grey dress i wore to the arts museum that you said i never wore. but i did! to a random day at church on sunday and your place! (: and yay, seeing linin tmr and hopefully shan too! & Fokkiewseah on wednesday hopefully!

I think we all have our inherent fears. We all appear, like calm seas during low tide, but below can sometimes lurk some of the darkest secrets and potentially damaging misconceptions. Which leads me to what I prayed about that day, about trust in the Lord which was aptly brought up during mass yesterday, about total trust in God. I felt it helped ground what I was praying about, it helped affirm me, it calmed me beyond just the surface of calm exterior to even the possible internal fears I hold. It could apply to millions of fears we have; of losing whats precious like family, boyfriend, or even dog, of possible hurt, of disappointment, of self-disappointment. And that we have to have total trust that everything done is done for good reason and that whilst we struggle in our lives to trust the people we love and trust ourselves, that above all we should trust in God to do what's best for us always. And it really makes me smile and calms me, to know He loves me and all of you too.

I take great delight, in returning to the start; life's calmest and defining moments. Like when I listen to certain songs, and I remember, the steady and sure sunrise on our right, amidst the glow of the morning and we sat quiet, leaning, smiling, cause we knew what a good thing we had starting.

you can't give up
lookin' for that diamond in the rough
you never know but when it shows up
make sure you´re holdin' on
cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

Sorry i didn't upload many piggtures, many more on facebook! like cheryl's poledance at timbre ;)

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Friday, June 19, 20091:22 PM★GSS SALE!


Discounted pieces right HERE! Don't miss it (:

And yayness, ben's feeling much better nows (: shall go eat lunch and laze away and perhaps visit him tmr <3

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2:42 AM★Love and Like

Got home a while ago from Cheryl's 21st birthday celebration but shall leave that for an entire different entry when I get the photos from her!

Just read N's entry on Love and Like, and I felt it would tie in really nicely with what I wanted to write about just before I head to bed. Ben was a real sweetheart, he accompanied me to wait at Timbre for the girls before he went off to play LAN with his friends, and on the way back he got stung by a wasp that, minutes later, landed him in Raffles Hospital with 2 injections and swelling.

Upon hearing this, I felt.. worried to say the least, scared at some point, and above all, sad. Though I knew perfectly well that he was going to be okay, but because I love ben very very much, it is such that anything that happens to him, happens to me.

So maybe here it is, a new thing to add to N and I's discussion, a certain hypothesis that we came up with when defining Love and Like, with me insisting that Love is best, is most rewarding, and is a choice. In addition, Love, as cheesy as it sounds, makes two people one person. In other words, an extention to what N and I discussed, Love is a choice of commitment and attachment. I would say then, that Love is a profound choice and stage of another-ness into your life, whereas Like is just the prerequisite to allowing that person to let you feel happy with 'fluffy feelings'.

Love is a scary choice, why? As N said, she prefers Like because it is effortless and brings with it what we would call, a natural high based on some of the most absurd things which arguably makes one a really happy person. Love, on the other hand, takes effort. Which means you'd have to give something back to make it work, and that loving someone is not only an action of falling, but of letting yourself fall.

The debate goes on all day. But I realised tonight yet again as I was worried sick, attempting to crack silly jokes to make ben laugh while he was suffering in the hospital bed, and the countless number of times I asked him 'are you okay?', that I love and like ben tan very very much.

Love, because I give him everything - my time, my words, my attention and more importantly, my heart. Love is the everyday steady kind, a choice (because you want to, not because you have to) to be with someone in a transparent-door way, to be there every single day and every single hour, to be there, with someone, to be two people not sharing seperate lives, but the same life.

Like, because amidst the everydayness and effort, ben gives me the 'fluffy feelings' every other second I'm with him. A smile or a laugh, a compliment, or a kiss on the forehead, or when I meet you everytime and it feels like the first time, all give me little doses of Like, that spells only one thing - I'm crazy about you.

So then, I think.. to apply what N and I spoke about in tonight's situation, Love is the part where ben calls me to let me know he's fine, the part where I call him and tell him how terribly worried I am, the part where I want to just rush over to be next to him even when he's feeling weak and tired, the part where I keep my phone close in case he calls or smses. Like, is the part where the equivalent of 'fluffy feelings' are converted into downnyy feelings, and I bear a heavy heart, of worry every second even when Cheryl's doing a poledance onstage at Timbre, and that in my thoughts and in my heart, I am nowhere else but in Raffles Hospital with ben. Though yes, I know that ben is gonna be fine.

But here's I guess a reiteration of what N and I thought about, that Like is temporal. Because these feelings will go away, when ben gets better, I won't be sad anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't care for him, because caring for him is an everyday choice I want to take, I want to love him, and liking him is just a bonus along the way. Or maybe, liking (which if we equate to as fluffy emotions/feelings) could actually be the beginning of Love. That in time, you'll want to Love the person you Like.

Which brings me back to the thought that it is a choice. I first encountered this loving concept in Tony Parson's book, Man and Wife, which I was telling ben about just the other night.

Just as how Harry Silver in the novel concluded towards the end, something that I strongly believe in too, that if we keep thinking there's someone else better out there, we'll never be able to love the person infront of us the way they deserve to be loved. And that in life, we can always find someone better, we can always find someone more handsome, richer, or someone that can give us even more Like fluff feelings. But I guess then, that it isn't about finding someone better, that we feel more in love with, because Love is a choice where we choose to love the person infront of us. Because the pursuit of someone better is one never-ending, insatiable appetite.

I reckon a lot of people will disagree here and there with what N and I spoke about, and I for one, know that Love cannot be defined, and that I cannot stick too strongly to what I believe to be right. But in marriage, Like is bound to fade, and what keeps couples together is the decision to Love one another, for better for worse, in sickness and in health.. and you get the picture.

Dear, when you read this, you might have just woken up and I'm on my way to your place, or I might be beside you while you're reading it, or we might have just gotten off the phone. But whenever, when you do read this, I want you to know I love you, and I like you, and to me there is no one better, there is only the best, which is you <3

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Thursday, June 18, 20092:49 AM★That Glam Affair

Cherninshan has updated with #4 ((: A collection of pretty pretty dresses that can be worn for any occasion! If you like what you see, head on down to http://cherninshan.livejournal.com/! Many more pretty pieces at the site itself (: Super love the english lacey and floral feel about this collection!





And then, girlfriends do, what girlfriends do best with a camera, a nice backdrop and pretty dresses: CAMWHORE!






After that shan shan had to go off for dance, linin and i walked around and took random photos in different dresses at all the major brands :D And remember that Topshop dress I said I love?



Tadah! Money.. Ner her herr. Totally loving its M shaped cut and mesh top.


And the night ended at Cafe Iguana that day. Super love my favourite people from NUS. This is a shoutout to N and S (coined term I've stolen from linin), kudos to our high heeled day, photoshoot, and you know I love you two bitches. ;D

Spent the day at ben's place (: The Bak Kut Teh his mom cooked was so tender and tasty, and though ben said it wasn't peppery enough, to me it was really good! Home cooked meals at his place always taste so so nice! I shall aspire to be a good cook and cook meals for my children, and then share the dish washing load as a together-we-dread-this activity with my husband. HAHA *stares at ben with squinty eyes* (: <3

And then we went upstairs to continue nua-ing as we do with every other day. super love just doing nothing, watching time tick by without a care in the world, no deadlines and no pressure. To have random coversations, real conversations, watch retarded dvd shows and lay around comfily. To do nothing together and everything together (: And though it is comfy at home, we shall find a day soon to take a nice slow walk out to the playground for a trip down memory lane (:

Today I ate at Sempang Bedok for the first time! Apparently its like the chomp chomp of the East. hahahaha met ben's friends for supper and had the yummiest cheese prata I have had thus far! Must eat it again someday!

Today was special in a lot of ways. Realised a lot of small meaningful things to be thankful for - good home cooked meals, happy parents, good conversations, good friends, good days without migraines, and a loving and darling boyfriend that I can share everything with <3

I end off this entry with..

HAPPY HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY

CHERYL ANN KHOO LI WEN <3

LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS!


This is to the sisterhood we have had for years! you know i'll always be a phone call away if you need a shoulder to cry on, a release point for bitching, or a shopping partner down Orchard. This is to our warped dreams of both corporate success, taitaihood and good looking children. HAHAHA see you in a few hours at Timbre girlfriend! <3

Omg everyone's turning 21 here and there. I hope my party at the end of the year will be equally as awesome, to know that I've touched people's lives by being their friends, and maybe let myself get drunk for once in my life (ben tan you once said you'd wanna be there for me if I ever wanted to get drunk! wanted to, cos everyone who knows me should know, I'm a control freak and I would never allow myself drunk unless.. HAHAHA)

Ok, time for bed. Slept at 7am yesterday cos N, S and i were rushing out the 4th collection and livejournal was being a bitch. Nighties!

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